Happy 11 Month Birthday little man. This is your last birthday post before you turn the big O-N-E. (picture to be taken tomorrow when C is awake)
December was a busy eventful month full of changes, too much snow, and lots of Christmas parties. One of the biggest changes this month was Daddy and I started you part-time in daycare. It was a decision that we struggled with for literally months. You were supposed to start back in September but thanks to the generosity of family members taking extra days off and Mommy and Daddy rarely having days off together, we were able to keep pushing it back month by month until we finally started you this month. Our desire was never to have you in a facility with strangers but to always be watched by family members who we trust to take care of you and love you the same way we do. But desires, no matter how strong, no matter how great the intentions are, no matter how much you pray, plead, and cry, aren't always possible pumpkin. Here's a great lesson Colin. Listen carefully: Sometimes your desires can change and often times, God answers your prayers differently than you "want." We have loved having you at daycare those 1-2 days a week. You have a wonderful teacher who I truly feels loves you and the Lord. You have loved being there since I first time I dropped you off. I will never forget watching you crawl up one of the incline mats while Sammy climbed up the other and watching the two of you "talk" to each other. The sense of peace I felt as I walked out of the doors leaving you for the first time is something I never thought I'd experience. Colin, I want to thank you for making this painfully hard decision very easy on us.
Your vocabulary continues to expand. You go in streaks with speaking and rarely will show off your new skills when asked but you have started saying "uh oh" when you (very) intentionally throw 
We had a great first Christmas, huh little one. It was filled with love, laughter, new forming traditions, family, and presents. You quickly learned how to rip the wrapping paper and find the smallest pieces to eat. You were spoiled rotten and got wonderful presents from everyone. The best present was you were able to see (almost) your entire family. I hope one day you realize how blessed you truly are. I also hope to always see this excitement every year :) 
We are entering month 11. In one quick month, 30 short days, less than 720 hours, you will turning one year old. Mommy isn't so sure she is ready for this. As you continue to become more and more independent, I feel myself clinging to cherish every 'baby' moment; to soak up as much as I can of baby Colin. Grandma, Aunt Janna and Aunt Merridith bought Mommy a book while you were still in my tummy called "Let Me Hold You Longer." The author writes this much better than I ever could in her editorial: "And that is when it hit me. When spend our children's days celebrating their firsts. First steps, first teeth, first words. First days of kindergarten, first homecoming dance, first time behind the wheel. But somehow, along the way, we miss the lasts. There are no photographs or parties when a child takes his last nap or catches tadpoles for the last time. For the most part, its impossible to know when a last-moment actually occurs... Then I wondered a bit more ... Would I have held on longer if I had known it was the last time?" Colin, I want to hold on forever and while that is not possible, I am promising to hold you a little longer, a little tighter but with wide open arms, so you can continue to explore this wonderful world.With all my love,
Mommy
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