After a long evening/night of false labor, had what I am {still} hoping was my last Dr's appt this morning. Mike and I drove to the appointment with me having big hopes and hoping to hear certain things. I left the appointment feeling defeated and discouraged and vainly disappointed by my weight gain. After a what felt like a long, very quiet ride home, Mike kissed me goodbye and headed off to work promising me that everything is fine and there's no need to feel the way I do. Plopped my big pregnant butt on the couch and opened my email only to find a sweet email from my SIL which resulted in tears. Nothing like crying 20 minutes before work! But she reminded me of what I've been trying to tell myself daily: to enjoy these last few days of being pregnant.
I've said that prayer so many times over the past week or so. I truly want to savor THESE moments. As much as I want to meet this new babe, I want to enjoy this time. I want to savor the present moment. These last moments of being a family of 3. These moments where Colin is my main focus (Heaven knows that boy needs it lately lol). Moments where it's just Mike and I watching TV silently on the couch. The precious moments where I can feel him or her rolling around in my stomach. Or feeling Colin and Mike's hands on my stomach trying to feel Shah-Baby kick around. I'll miss my big ole shelf of a belly. Trying to savor the moments of not needing to attend to a newborn baby. Just trying to savor this period of our lives.
So now while we are truly in the wait-and-see period, I'm trying to remind myself that even more.
Just slow down.
Calm down.
And Savor.
Trust that God will bring this baby to us in his perfect timing.
"When I feel like caving in
My heart my soul is wearing thin
I just want to give up
Nothing seems at all to add up
I know you hear me Lord.
When my face is down upon the floor
It's then you whisper in my ear
Be still and know I'm here.
We are not alone.
Be still and know I'm here.
We are not alone.
Be still and know I'm here.
We are not alone.
Be still and know I'm here.
We are not alone."
1 comment:
I could hear your disappointment this morning. Thanks to Missy for the reminder to savor these moments. I can sense a transition in your pregnancy, another sign of getting closer but not quite ready. God has the plan and time and will make it clear when He is going to send you your little blessing. Meanwhile enjoy a few moments to relax
We are excited to cuddle little Shay-baby and spending time with our sleep over friend.
We love you Kristi and Mike!
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