Rating: PG 13 for language

I wrote a blog posting very different from the usual postings but I am afraid to post it. It is something that has been on my mind for months now but I've always been too chickenshit to actually type it out. You would never guess by my lack of comments but I have quite a few followers on this blog and I'm not sure if the world wants to hear what is going on in my head and my heart. Truthfully, I don't want to hear what is going on in my head. Most people don't need to know these thoughts, feelings, frustrations, hurts but it's my damn blog. I can write whatever I want to write, right? I shouldn't give a shit what people think of me but you should know me better than that. I do care and that in there lies part of my problem. I care too much about what others think of me.

So while I spent almost 2 hours crying while typing out a long-ish blog all in vagueness and a very detailed email to my bestie, I'm still not any closer to knowing whether or not I should post the entry.